I have to begin this blog by apologizing, for the past month I have been really bad about communication. My lame excuse is that I got spoiled when I was home and could get my computer at any moment and have internet access right in the middle of the kitchen and now that I am back in Swaziland, I have to drive to the office to get an internet connection. I know, lame. Part of why I have been bad has also been that this past month I have been in a bit of a low spiritually. I have struggled to do my quiet times and felt like my prayers were hitting the ceiling. I would open the Bible (because that's the right thing to do) and read the words on the page and that's all it felt like to me, was words on a page, I might as well have been reading a novel.  But God is faithful even when we are not and though it's not easy to go from ho-hum to super excited, the past week has been really good and the Bible is coming alive to me again. This I am sure is because of the prayers of those I shared this with.

 

While it has nothing specifically to do with ministry here, it has everything to do with everything. I listened to a message from John Piper on Sunday and he was preaching from Hebrews 1:3. The verse talks about Jesus sustaining all life through his Word. Intellectually I know this, but while John Piper was speaking, it hit me deeper inside than it ever had before. The very reason I exist day to day is because Jesus speaks my existence into being, WOW!! that's amazing!! it's incredible!! I like exclamation points :) But think about it, you and I exist and breathe each day because Jesus says we can, same as when the earth was created, it was created by the Word of God, because before that there was nothing.  So my blah spirit was blown away and renewed by the fact that I, little ole me is so important to God that He continues to let me live each day.

 

I didn't mean to preach, but I had to share this. If you are feeling like life is just "whatever" and are wondering what the heck you are here for, know that there is a very good reason you are here and God has something for you to do, otherwise why would he continue to speak your life into existence and let you live. I don't know what God has for each person reading this and some days I am not quite sure what I am doing, but I can rest assured that God knows, He cares, and He wants the best from me and for me.

 

I hope this encourages someone today. Thanks to everyone who holds me in their prayers, without you, I can do very little. God bless you :)